I’m Augustina “Auggy” Hone, PMHNP-BC (Psychiatric Mental Health Nurse Practitioner - Board Certified)
I, like many others, know all too well what trauma feels like. What it feels like to have to pick up the pieces, what It feels like to try to find normalcy again, what It feels like to try to find love again (we tend to find it in all the wrong places don’t we?), what it feels like to put on a façade of happiness while you’re drowning inside… Oh, I know it all too well.
After suffering from major trauma in my childhood, I spent my adolescence and young adulthood looking for purpose. I thought, if I could figure out why I survived, then I could thrive. Easier said than done. I made so many reckless mistakes during this journey. I turned to all the wrong avenues for self-discovery and healing. I partied, neglecting all my responsibilities. I tried everything in me to pretend as if my trauma did not happen. That led to confusion, self-hatred, and isolation.
I always knew I wanted to work in psychiatry. When I was younger my mom would share stories about my grandfather John who passed away when I was an infant. He was diagnosed with schizophrenia and unfortunately, spent time in state institutions at a time when mental illness was heavily stigmatized. His psychiatric care was anything but humane. When I started college, I knew this was my purpose in life. I knew I needed to help others because I needed it, because my grandfather needed it.. So, off to nursing school I went.
I entered a major depressive episode during my first semester of nursing school. I spent an entire night crying, praying for the pain and flashbacks to go away. After years of trying to ignore the trauma, I finally made the best decision I could for myself- I attended therapy. I expected to be treated horribly, as if I were just another patient. My session was anything but that. I was treated like a person and given a safe space to share my emotions, my story. It was a place for me to begin healing.
Together my therapist along with a psychiatric nurse practitioner, made me feel like me again. I was happy for the first time in a long time. I learned I am not what was done to me, I am not my perpetrator, I am not my diagnoses- I am me with all my faults and all my imperfections- and I love me.
I can help you love you again.
I stayed the course to graduate with my nursing degree. I immediately jumped into psychiatric work and went back for my nurse practitioner. My life experiences have made me value every patient I interact with. I approach medicine gently- starting off with minimal medications, at low doses. Together, I can work with your therapist at Inlow to help you fall in love with yourself and life again.
I promise, the journey may be hard, but it’s worth it.
You owe it to yourself to live a life full of happiness. You DO deserve it.
Remember, you are not alone. You can do it. Trust the process.